Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Does Anyone else Feel this way?

This is very strange (at least to my husband and family members) but I know of others feeling this way... I'm not crazy, and I don't hate the world I live in, but I have such a STRONG desire to enter another world or dimension. It's so strong that I sit there and ball, or just close my eyes and listen to a haunting song while tears stream down my face. My stomach gets in knots and my heart races at the end of movies like the Chronicles of Narnia, Lord of the Rings, and even Harry Potter and Spirited Away! I sit there and stare at the credits, listening to the music and weeping because I'm not in THAT world, I'm in this one. I sometimes walk through the woods and change the surroundings with my mind, music helps allot, and pretend I'm in my own world, one that no one knows about and only I can enter. This desire drives me crazy because while the others can watch the movie and when it's over flip right to sports or something, I sit there with a blank stare, crying, just because I cannot be in that world anymore. UGH. Am I nuts or do lots of people feel like this? I have been poked fun at because of it, but they simply can't feel like this, I've tried to describe it to them and they look at me like I'm weird. WHY do I want to have my own world so bad? But like I said, I don't hate the world and I'm not just trying to escape it or something, but I just want my OWN world that I can return to once I'm through here..

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